Revitalizing Rain

I am getting the sense that it has been a little while since I have blogged or e-mailed so here it is, an update. I have just returned from a rain shower. That was one of the most exhilarating things ever. I am reminded of the times when Angie and I would run out into rain, splashing in the puddles. It is almost 10pm here on March 16. The rain began to pour, and everyone came out to see it. Ben ran out in what he was wearing. I ran to Laura to get the video camera, so its for sure gonna be in the video. Then I suggested that we all run out together, and we did. Even though I was in my skirt, I didn't even change. I just ran out. It was absolutely awesome. Once again, when everyone came home from their placements I had a sense of restlessness and to be honest loneliness. I came into the main room to see that almost everybody had left to who knows where, the only people who were left were the ones on the internet. So basically, I went into my room, and just went to my devotional book. I felt a lot better after that, but even better was that Liesl came in. I was feeling fine at that point, but it was still nice that she came in just to talk. After a little while, we were joined by Aislin and Elena. We popped caramel popcorn and watched 30 minutes of clueless, till we were interrupted by the rain. Being in the rain was amazing. It felt so good to be connected to these people. Everyone is so awesome. We had so much fun, just in the dark, running around in the pouring rain. For some reason, being in that rain, just made it feel like everything fell off. It's might be a little corny to say, but honestly the rain, it was awesome. I haven't had fun to that level for a while. It has pumped me up for tomorrow as well. Tomorrow we are going to the Blue Hole. Basically a really deep water, surrounded by underwater caves, and all that. I don't know much, but you should look it up. I will know everything tomorrow. We are leaving at 10:30 am and we will be there all day. I am loving my tanning scene. Seems that everyone is peeling except me. I just keep tanning more and more. Tis sweet. I am super pumped to go home, I am not going to lie. But if I have more moments like this, it's going to be really hard by the end. Belize is awesome. The sun is so nice. The people are really nice most of the time. :D And I am really growing here. The fact that I am away from every comfort is really challenging, but I know will be good. I really do have to rely on God for everything. I am here, I don't have any best friends, no boyfriend, no family, and barely any comforts. And yet, God is doing some amazing things. It feels so good to do devotions again, to pray, just really great. We had a devotion this morning, and I really opened up to the group. I just told them how I was feeling, what I was struggling with. Honestly, it has been really hard not to have my close friends here. I am very used to having everyone (my friends) absorb pretty much everything I say, always encouraging me, loving on me, laughing with me. Well here I don't necessarily have that at all. It has been an adjusting thing. I don't have close friends here, I will be honest. For my friends/family who know my hyper side, I haven't really brought that fully out yet, I did once, when we were at the pool. Not that I hide anything, it just doesn't come out without encouragement. And that is why today was amazing. I felt so connected, we were all just having a blast, screaming, jumping, and just playing around in the rain. I have been homesick for these things. I miss my friends who love and support me in everything, I miss my boyfriend and my family whom I love very much. I do miss you guys, whether you realize it or not. Belize is awesome, by the end I won't want to leave, but right now, its still hard. I will become closer to these people, maybe even make some really good friends. I haven't had that good of a chance either because half of us are in placements off the YWAM base. Next week will be my last week at the orphanage, although every morning I don't want to be there, and by the middle I am really tired and frustrated, I always leave there happy. When I look back I hardly remember the hard times. This whole experience will be amazing. Although I know it will be hard at times. Thank God for the rain, so refreshing and nice. And I know the people who are on this trip were chosen by God. Key verse for me.. The Joy of the Lord is my strength.