Devotional Thinking... Again

I am sitting here in the common room of our house and the day is almost done. It is 8:30pm here and we have to be in bed for 11pm. There is a bit of tension here because I am in a room with three other girls while everyone else is in a room with 2, but we have the smallest room. We did pick it, but it just sucks because girls with 3 in there room won't switch. I don't even mind the smaller room if I could put my luggage in there room. Just kind of annoying. Anyways, we have eaten dinner, spaghetti, garlic bread, salad and cake, twas delicious. And we have finished the meeting, it wasn't too boring, Kathy told us some funny stories and we had some laughs. Overall, I think this experience is gonna be awesome and yet, I really want it to be over. Maybe my tune will change when I get to my placement. It is just right now I am tired, hot and irritated. Also, I really want the internet but we only have 4 cables so thats how many people can use it at a time. I have already sent an e-mail and loaded my pictures onto facebook, but I still wanted more time (stinky). So I am just sitting here with no internet, expressing my frustrations. I am kind of excited to have the ten leave so that we will have more personal space and the internet will not be taken. Anyways, I promised myself that I would have a little devotional time while I write. I have now listening to a worship cd and trying to de-stressify myself. I want to reflect on that which Kathy talked about tonight. She talked about the servant mentality in a way I have never thought of. Instead of waiting for people to assign jobs to you, you can approach them, and ask if you can help them with anything. Jesus got right in there, he washed his disciple's feet. When I am living in the Belizean homes, I am told that I will have to help with dinner, clean up, etc. basically I will have chores and responsibilities. I know I will complain about these later, but really the point is, I will be apart of their family. I will rest with them, I will work with them. The only time I will be separate is when I do my correspondence, which by the way I need to start (GAH!!). I feel that after tomorrow I will probably start, tonight I will figure out how much I have to work each day. To be honest I feel that will be the most brutal part of this other than the traveling. Just trying to set aside time each day and work, gonna be brutal. Anyways, feeling better about most things. I think I will have a snack once I have downloaded the pictures off my camera, then I will delete them. Awesomeness. I have read my journal from the peeps (friends) and I just wanna say that it really encouraged me. I love everyone and I really appreciate all the encouragement. I know I can do this, and I will probably be in love with this place in the end, but at the moment, I am just trying to get through all this. I am excited to help the orphanage and I think what Kathy says is true about praying about which child I give the dresses to. I only have ten, and I have three months, well three weeks in this placement, so yea, I will probably bring one to the first day, maybe not even. It's crazy, but I think the only reason why these trips are so life changing is because you have to deal with struggles and overcome them. This whole time is going to be about growing and changing. I am copying my pictures right now. I am pretty proud of them. I took a picture of my crocs and it is now my desktop, I am quite proud. Alisha would be proud, I have been recruited, they are quite comfortable. I believe I have unburdened myself well and tonight I shall just relax. I am very honoured to be here, I just need to remember to have a servant's heart and to go with the flow. Everything we be all right. Peace out.